Yep another lame, everything sucks post, but hopefully I can get past them soon…
The issues that I have at the moment are really quite insignificant in the grand scheme of things… A baby that takes hours to get to sleep, the same baby won’t let anyone else put him to sleep but me. A girl who refuses to use the toilet half the time and is wetting her pants more now then she did as a two year old. A boy who is pushing every single boundary known to man and a seemingly always at work husband (though is is on three weeks leave right now).
Nothing earth shattering, nothing major. Daily insignificant stay at home mum, life stuff really but for some reason it’s all too overwhelming at the moment. I just want to hide from it all. I feel terrible for even complaining when I know people around me, a few friends I particular who are going through a lot more & here I am complaining about stupid stuff.
If I’m honest it’s been like this for a while. Since before The Baby was born for sure. Quite possibly around the time of the bed rest when I was taken off my anxiety meds now that I think about it. Obviously it was there before that & hence the meds.
I just want it be happy, to be me again, less angry, more patient. I’m not sad or depressed, I’m just not happy. This in itself makes me unhappy, because there’s no reason for it. My life is awesome, so why on earth am I so overwhelmed by the insignificant?